“But why — I have so many questions that YOU can answer. Why did we become immortal? Why?â€
“Because if we die, truly die…†The incarnation looked up at me, and his eyes were like steel. “Death’s kingdom will not be paradise, not for us. If you spoke to these others that were here, know that a fraction of the evil of their lives is but a drop of water compared to the evil of mine. That life, that one life, even without the thousands of others, has given a seat in the Lower Planes for eternity.â€
“But you seem so much… calmer. More well-intentioned.â€
“I became that way, yes. Because for me…†His voice took on a strange echo. “It is regret that may change the nature of a man.†He sighed. “But it was too late. I was already damned.â€
“I found that changing my nature was not enough. I needed more time, and I needed more life. So I came to the greatest of the Gray Sisters and asked her for a boon — to try and help me live long enough to rectify all the damage I had done. To make me immortal.â€
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As I held the sphere up this time and examined it, I felt the memories of the first of my incarnations stirring within me, but it was not an insistent or driving force — it was calm, like the thoughts of a man walking across a great distance to speak to a friend he hadn’t seen in ages. As I felt his presence in my mind, I saw the sphere in a different light — not as ugly, or hideous, but as something precious, like a newborn child — the sphere was the repository of my last moments, before I met Ravel on the Gray Waste and asked the impossible of her.